Transportation

I am so happy that Honolulu has good public transportation and that we live near enough to my work to make the bus ride not too bad. I filled up our SUV yesterday and it was crazy. The bus is great most of the time. There is the occasional traffic problem that makes getting home almost impossible. Tuesday night they were doing road construction in the middle of rush hour. The ride home took over an hour, it normally takes 15 minutes.

We are hoping to get away to Maui in July. I'm not sure how that will work out. With airfare going up and things. It would be great to get away for a few days. It would also be nice to see another island.

Pain as a Blessing?

This is a very interesting thought. I haven't posted for a while because nothing with the pain has changes except that it has gotten worse. I don't want this blog to be only whining. I spent many days last week crying and repeating in my head GOD is good, HE has a plan for good through this, HE is still on the throne, HE loves me VERY much, and HE will use this to bless others. The great thing is this week the pain isn't as bad and repeating those thought worked because I truely believe them with all my heart now. I doesn't mean this is going to be easy but GOD is good all the time.

It has been a little hard with the thought that this month we were supposed to become parents. As sad as it is that the pain has changed that I know GOD has a plan. Only GOD knows if that plan includes kids. Amazingly I'm ok with that most of the time.

I do have a rabbit trail. There is a thought among some Christians that pain is not from GOD. That as a child of GOD we have a right to not have pain. That we can speak to that pain and speak healing into reality. Speak it in JESUS name and you will be healed. I have a problem with this thought. Firstly my mom is of the thought process on a lot of things. Thankfully she hasn't gone there on this one. Now I have definatly had lots ans lots of prayer for healing. I have a problem with what I would call "name it and claim it". Then you also have the side that is it doesn't happen like you've asked it can send you into bad depression. Plus if we are able to GOD like that what kind of GOD is HE. That to me is more like a genie in a bottle. I have also in the past been hurt in churches where they call you up for prayer for healing and right after they pray they ask you if you feel any differance from the pain any signs of healing and when you feel the same you are told the you must not have had enough faith.

Plus Paul had a thorn in the flesh. The bible doesn't say what it was exactly but it was something bad enough that he asked 3 times for GOD to take it away.

GOD can be grorified throught my pain, and HE will. When I'm having a hard time with it HE will be there to listen and hold me. In the end I know I will be able to look back and see the amazing things the HE has done in the pain.

A lot of NOTHING

Sorry it's been a while. The MRI came back clean. The things found were very small and wouldn't of caused the problem. So back to square one. I started physical therapy and it looks like that my posture as I work was tweaking my back to the right that could account for the spasms. Now that it is being worked out you would think it would be getting better. Well I have changed my posture to stop constantly turning to the right. Unfortunately the effect is opposite to what was expected. The pain is getting worse. I am in the midst of being tested for more in depth autoimmune issues and so far every thing is coming back normal. Don't get me wrong I'm happy to not have an autoimmune issue, but we are running out of causes for the pain I'm in. I'm on anti inflammatory and muscle relaxers and this should be calming down the pain. But it is not. We are trying another round of steroids in hopes that it calms it down. The next step is pain killers that I'd rather not do. I'm not sure what we are doing next.

I know that GOD has a plan in even this.

MRI

I got a preliminary report on my MRI on saturday. I have 2 slightly bulging discs in my neck and a small crevice of fluid in my spinal cord in my neck. I'm not sure what can be done. I hope to talk to the Neurologist sometime this week. It is a relief to know that there was a reason for all of the things going on. Thankfully most of the pain is gone. If I over do it I know about it. As long as I don't get too crazy everything is good.

Thanks for all the prayers

Birthday

I have the best husband ever. Yesterday was my birthday. Jason is so funny he love surprises. So he had a lot of fun not giving me any clues as to my gifts. He got me a much needed purse. Then we went to a very nice restuarant. It's been a long time since we've gone to a really nice place. It was great and I felt very special. God really has blessed me with a great husband.

I feel bad he had already guessed his present for next month. He loves surprises but he is also very good a figuring things out. Too good. I try to surprise him and he had guess correctly all but 2 or 3 times in our 9 years of celebrations.

Way to go Chad

I have to brag. My brother in-law Chad is in his senior year of college in South Carolina. He is there playing baseball. As far a baseball goes he is awesome. This season he has broken the schools record for home runs and is getting near to the regional record. This is a great way to finish BIG. He is an amazing young man with his head firmly on his shoulders. He has devoted so much of is time to baseball and training . Even when I met him he was in 8th grade and sent all of his summer with baseball teams. We think Chad is the best. Our hope is that he will get a chance at the majors.

Neurologist

I finally had my appointment. I really don't have any answers. I will be going to physical therapy and having a MRI for my full spine.

I am now pretty good in the morning but still having the spasm and tingly feelings at night. The degree depends on my activities for the day. I'm feel very lazy.